Sometimes when I don’t post for awhile I start to feel guilty. I want to apologize for being MIA, but deep down I know you guys understand why I’ve been a little distant. I love you so much more for that! After waiting quite awhile to begin our fertility treatments, we finally started IVF (In-vitro fertilization) a few weeks ago. I thought we would have some simple tests and then begin our journey. As usual, I was wrong.
I started birth control for about a month while this was all going on. I started birth control to get my hormones going and for my reproductive endocrinologist (RE) to monitor and time my cycle. Then, a few days later, a big package of medications got dropped off at the door step. That was an overwhelming and sad, sad day. I was just dumbfounded looking at all the medication with a blank stare. “Is this really all for me?” I thought to myself. I decided to put it in a shoe organizer so that I could see all the medications and keep track if I was running out of anything.
On day 1 of my period, I went to get a baseline ultrasound and blood work. This is so they can judge where my cycle started off. Day two of my cycle, I started with a Gonal-F injection pen, which was easy for me to administer myself. I’m a freak about needles. Judge me if you want.. I can’t help it! Thankfully, Anthony has been by my side every night and does all the other injections. I didn’t think I could love him any more than I already do, but this infertility process has proved me wrong. He reassures me every day that it will be worth it when we are holding our little babe. The Lord knows the desires of our hearts y’all. One of my best friends even helped me last night, because Ant picked up an overnight shift (did I mention my hubby is officially a fire fighter y’all!!!) But my girl friend had never used a needle before and did it like a champ. I’m lucky to have you as one of my besties, Pitts! 🙂
A day after starting the Gonal-F, I started Menopur and then worked Cetrotide in as well. Gonal-F and Menopur stimulate the ovaries and follicles. I was developing multiple follicles in each ovary. They started off the size of almonds and some got as big as oranges (it’s as uncomfortable as it sounds!) The Cetrotide made it so I didn’t ovulate too early. In the midst of all these injections, I have been going to the Dr.’s every 2-3 days for ultrasounds and blood work. The doctors want to make sure the medication is working properly and check for any symptoms of OHSS (Ovarian Hyperstimulation Syndrome.) They would measure all my follicles and my endometrium lining.
I am happy to report that now everything has been going really well! I was on the stims (stimulation injections) for 9 days. On the 10th day, I did my trigger shot (HCG) which triggers my eggs to “mature and release.” And 36 hours later I was getting my egg retrieval procedure done. I was sedated for about 20 minutes and they went in to get my little eggies. Once I woke up from my procedure, they told my husband and I they were able to retrieve 15 eggs. The next day they called to say that 13 were fertilized with Ant’s sperm! What joy it was to hear that many made it. That same day, I began my progesterone oil shots. I’m still doing them now. Man oh man, I’m tired, bloated and huuuuuuuuungry. It’s like PMSing on steroids or something, lol. But for real! So today is Friday, and we go back Sunday for my embryo transfer! For the past 3 days, up until Sunday, they will see which embryos last and are the strongest. Whichever one is graded the highest is the one that they will insert back to me. At that point, I’m considered PUPO (pregnant until proven otherwise.) Two weeks from Sunday, I will take a pregnancy test to see if the little embaby sticks!
I keep saying to Anthony how weird it is to imagine our little babies growing in a petri dish in a lab right now. This isn’t how we imagined our baby (or babies) to be formed, but we’re forever thankful for God’s grace that our insurance was able to cover the treatment. Without our insurance, who knows when we would be able to afford it. It seems surreal that if this embryo sticks, I’ll be confirmed pregnant in a few short weeks. I’m filled with pure joy and love just thinking about it. I pray for all my infertility sisters and brothers, that we are all holding our sweet babies some day soon.
Please say a prayer for us, sweet friends. The prayers and love mean more to us than you could imagine. I’ll keep you updated in a few weeks, with hopefully some great news!